When a phoenix is reborn, the ashes are left to crumble, but sometimes the winds of change have other plans.
It is the beginning of a new school year and I have moved out and am now living on campus. I am simultaneously excited and nervous for the move and the preceding events that follow such a big (and expensive) decision. Still however what never seems to fail, is the uncanny reflection of yours story. In addition to this recollection, two things, (amongst many others) seem to happen and become apparent when you are
thrown propelled into a new environment.
1) You meet new people.
2) You meet old people.
Ok, so you might be nodding your head in agreement for the first one and then suddenly stop and give me that confused look on the second one. No, I do not mean you will be introduced to the elderly, however, it is possible but not necessarily what I meant. What I mean by the second point is that old friends, enemies, acquaintances, let’s just say people, seem to come back into your life uninvited, in both positive and negative ways.
I have found that when moving forward, some choose to glance behind to see what they have accomplished (or are yet to accomplish) while others choose to barrel forward without looking back. Neither way is right nor wrong, however sometimes, well I suppose quite often, when life move forwards, people come back. This may be a generalized conclusion, but hear me out. Have you ever just gotten into a new and better relationship and then your ex comes back, asking for forgiveness? In theory, this kind of event seems to happen a lot. Offered a new job, old one wants to rehire you? Family you have always never got along with and never really contacted, started to send you emails, or phone calls? It can even be a positive thing. Like you worked part time over the summer at a corporation and then had to leave because you were moving away, only to get called years later by a fellow co-worker or boss that wants to hire you?
For some reason, I find that, in a sense life tests us, saying “You think that’s great, what about this?!” or “Let’s throw a curve ball at you and bring up back of the mind, forever ignored emotions and memories!” It is interesting the way that this seems to happen, and yet is appears to be that in every new faced situation, some form of this theory is shown and either exploited or beneficially used.
Life is interesting in a way in which, in times when it seems you have taken two step forwards, in reality, you have also taken one step back. When baggage that you wish not to remember revisits your present time, it may be time to reconsider your thoughts about the pattern you may be creating for yourself. For I firmly believe that things happen for a reason, and take this tidbit or leave it, but sometimes, when the old ashes of you past, brush upon your face in the present, the ashes may rekindle and set a blaze in the future.
And never forget your past which you had hoped to forgotten.
Sonja P. (a.k.a. Copper D.W.)